It's been a long time since I had this funny feeling. The last time I felt that was when I was in Primary Six and it was the farewell party for us. Now, four years later, I am feeling the same thing again.
Your stomach tenses up and you almost like crying but you have to stop yourself because it will look bad. You feel really sad and everyone else feels sad too. You just feel as if a part of your body is being cut off slowly and it hurts, for there is no aspirin.
I don't want to leave just yet.
People give you many things - hugs, kisses, words, and even gifts. The juniors did us proud by coming up with a skid. It was funny but it was thoughtful too. I guess, it wasn't only me but the others felt the same too.
Looking back, I finally realised how stupid I was when I was young. Fresh into Secondary One, I hope that I would grow up fast. Secondary Two, I hoped that time past even faster for I really wanted to wear long pants. Finally into secondary Three, I became almost senior and I hope that I want time to zoom. Now, in Secondary Four, I am just hoping that time would pass slower and it will freeze. I don't want to grow up now. I want to remain here forever.
Ask me a moment I want to freeze in forever, I would say that it was that day, where we were all in the lush green area. Where we just have all the fun in the world: waterbombs, football, small chats and food.
However, I know that one cannot just be wishful that they will be able to live in a certain moment forever. That is why we have memories. One just have to move on and live life to the fullest.
"Don't die now, die after the performance."
I would run round the world for you;
9:46 PM
Everyone wants to be a superhero. They want to have the power to be able to help and save someone. Fall in love with a handsome or pretty person and become admired by everyone in the world.
Now, is that true?
Should we snap out of those fantasies and live in the harsh reality or should we continue dreaming and when the bubble burst, it will hurt.
The uncle of Spiderman once said: "With great power comes great responsibility." I like this phrase. When you have a lt of power, you should not abuse it. You should, instead, use it wisely to everyone's benefit. After all, everyone likes a win-win situation.
I am sure no one would like a win-lose situation or even a lose-lose situation.
I would run round the world for you;
4:23 AM
I hate to fall. I just don't like it. When I was young, I didn't know the word death, pain nor injury. I was just pure playful and I always run around everywhere and anywhere.
There was once when I was playing tagging with my friends. I ran everywhere - across the roads, climb up fences, jump over railways and did everything one can imagine to not let the tag catch me. I just did not want to be caught even though I have done some dangerous things.
I ran up a stairs. I literaly ran up the stairs, jumping at some step, giving them a miss because I thought I would want to waste my time on them. Then, I just tripped and fell when I skipped a step. I think, thatwas my eleventh step. Great! Just one step before perfection.
There was a lot of blood! A pool of blood! A pond of blood! A lake of blood! A sea of blood!
I was rushed to the hospital. On the way, I was holding my chin and crying, telling my mom," Mummy, I don't want to go to the hospital. Let me go home. I promise I will be a good boy. I won't run around anymore. I won't skip steps anymore. I will climb every single step I encounter. I don't want to go to the hospital. Injections are painful. They bite and I don't want to be punished that way! Mummy, please let me go home. I promise I will be a good boy."
Needless to say, I was sent to the hospital where the "punishment" was dished out to me. Now, the words "fall" and "pain" have been etched into my face forever, by the scar I had gotten from the fall.
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Note: The above things are all made up. I was just trying to bring something into you people's attention. If you can figure out I am trying to talk about, good for you. If you can't figure out I am talking about...
Well, it's for me to know and for you to guess.
I would run round the world for you;
4:37 AM
Should I kiss you tenderly goodbye or should I let you stay by my side?
I am in a dilemma!
Sometimes, you just don't know what to do. So, what do you exactly do? You source for help. You ask questions to help you get better.
Questions: What? Why? Where? Who? When? How? Explain in your own words. Pick out phrases and quotes. Irony?
I don't feel like typing anymore. I shall go sit quietly in one corner and reflect about the question that I just asked. Should I or should I not.
I would run round the world for you;
12:49 AM
I am reading the Grimm brothers now. For those who don't know them. They are both great authors who wrote famous fairytales like the Ash-Putel (Cinderella), Snow-Drop (Snow White) and Rose Bud (Sleeping Beauty).
Most of his stories shocked me quite a bit. The characters harbour evil thoughts of killing the bad characters in the story. The characters are not grateful to those who helped them. You know what? Almost everytime, these characters are those who come out unharmed and unscathed.
Also, another factor that shocked me was the way the Grimm brothers punish the evil. For one instant in the goose girl, the maiden had her "thrown into a cast stuck round with sharp nails, and that two white horses should be put to it, and should drag it from street to street till she is dead."
In another instant, in the dog and the sparrow, the sparrow vowed to kill the human and the sparrow killed his horses, broke his jugs of wine and in the end, trick the human's wife to throw a stone onto the human's head, killing him immediately.
Now, are these really fairytales? Or are these tales of gore?
And to think of that, fairytales are read to children as their bedtime stories and if a parent read the orignal grimm fairytales, will it pollute the young juvenile minds of the children?
I would run round the world for you;
5:55 AM
